This morning at church one of the missionaries we support gave the sermon. It took about maybe 2 minutes, if that, into his sermon for me to realize the Lord was speaking directly to me. He made slight mention to his main point and I knew what he was going to say and knew it was the Lord answering my prayers!
The back story:
Back when I was in high school I started spending time with the Lord daily. I would be super consistent until I could no longer “feel” the Lord right there with me. Then I would struggle and doubt and all that jazz. Then between my junior and senior year of high school I went to this month-long camp at Hume Lake called Caleb. We would have a quiet time every day. I struggled with “feeling” the Lord a lot during those times. We were studying Ephesians that month and one quiet time at Jenny Lake where we had backpacked to I came to Ephesians 2:6, where it talks about how we are raised and seated with Him in the heavenly places in Christ. And it just hit me that it didn’t matter if I could “feel” him or not I was seated with him already.
After that moment whenever I didn’t “feel” Him and that doubt would come I would go back to that verse and it wouldn’t matter anymore.
Flash forward to recently… I’ve been trying to get consistent with my quiet times again but have been struggling. I’ve been distracted, super tired, feeling fake during my times, and all the other excuses you can come up with. And because I know a bunch of these are excuses and I know that the enemy would rather me not spend time with the Lord, I’ve been taking these struggles to the Lord.
The sermon today was out of Exodus. When God first called Moses, he couldn’t come near and he had to remove his sandals. Then later on in Exodus what did he have to do to commune with God? He had to hike a mountain. It wasn’t just easy peasy. He had to put in the effort to hike the mountain to commune with God. But God was there ready to meet with Moses every single time he hiked up that mountain. The point the missionary was making is that our relationship with the Lord takes work. Spending time with him takes work. We have to be willing to put in that effort. God is faithful and meets us every time!
So all these struggles I’ve been having? I just need to persevere through and keep putting in the effort to commune with God. Because He is so worth it! And thank you Lord for hearing my prayers about my struggles and providing me with the answer!!